Tuesday, May 5, 2009

cinco de hi-yooo

or, alternate title: my uterus is a worthless bag of shit.

first, best cinco de mayo ever - i took my last exam of grad school today. while it sucked, a lot, it's over. no more tests, presentations, papers, clinicals (1000 hrs that i worked for FREE). done, done DONE! i am so damn excited that i don't even know what to do w/ myself. i started celebrating by double fisting some delicious beer with my classmates to celebrate and make the horrendous test we just took a distant memory.

now, my uterus is a worthless bag of shit -
i got my period on may 1, exactly 7 damn days late. while i did not believe for a second that i was pg, i was none the less annoyed since i had to get it in order to start the meds for IVF #2. with my uterus and other reproductive parts undying quest to sabotage our IVF, it came at the exact worst time possible. we had to postpone this cycle as well b/c the prospective ER would have been too close to graduation to risk it, and i don't think my mother or husband would allow me to skip graduation;) i really didn't think it was that big of a deal b/c i recalled having this exact conversation with my IVF nurses about what we would do if things fell too close to graduation after our IVF cycle was cancelled. i remember it extremely well, b/c i took notes. that's what i do. i write shit down so there is no question later. i had written down that i could take bcp for 1 week if needed to skip an important date/vacation. 1 m-effing week. one. apparently the IVF nurses had never heard of such a thing. "one week, that's just silly, what do you think one week of bcp will do? no, you can just skip this month and try for next month" this of course led me to have a meltdown and throw a fit like a 5 yr old. b/c, dammit, i wrote down 1 week of bcp and i don't want to wait an entire month. also, i don't "have all the time in the world" as she implied. i only have infertility insurance though my current job. the job that i will hopefully be quitting in a few months after i take boards b/c i need to find a new job as a nurse practitioner. anyway, i lost and we are doing bcp for 2 weeks, then i stop and wait for af and then get the baseline u/s, blood work and start the new medication protocol. argh. extra annoying. also annoying? the IVF nurse tried to make it sound like a super great idea. at least until i told her that this is still basically sitting out an entire cycle and she didn't fool me. i am really having a strong dislike for this RE's office staff. they seem to be chalked full of liars and jerks that give false hope. i miss my old RE. damn insurance.

14 comments:

Jill said...

ugh.. insurance sucks. At least you're getting this show on the road (sorta), right?

Tina said...

I don't even think our insurance would cover any infertility stuff. I agree with Jill - insurance does suck! I hope you are able to get everything in before you leave your job.

YEA for being done with school and your last final!!!!!

Misty said...

Damn the stupid RE nurse who didn't remember telling you 1 week of BCP was fine. damn her for making you wait one more month. I hate waiting.
Congrats on being done with school! That is awesome...a big woot woot for you!

Cat said...

Taking BCP for an extra week or skipping the sugar pills is done all the time by non-IVF patients who don't want to get AF on their vacation, etc. How could the nurses not know that? Bizarre. Sorry it's pushing you back a month.

Congrats on finishing grad school!

'Murgdan' said...

Oh. Having our choices dictated by money is just so unfair. I'm sorry. Waiting sucks. As if it wasn't bad enough waiting this damn long....

Hang in there. Thinking of you...

And SOOOOOO happy for you about graduation. Isn't it an AMAZING feeling?

To A T said...

Damn! Stupid ins pricks!

Congrats on the upcoming graduation though!! Hooray!

andrea said...

HELL YES to being done wiht school!! that is freaking awesome!

(and i am getting my mph.. i can't wait to be done..before i start...)

insurance co's can suck it in my opinion - i know mine covers 0% of anything infertility related. but you would think that being in the medical field - this wouldn't be an issue. so here's hoping you don't need to worry about it b/c this round will work.
i'll drink to that!

Kate said...

And don't forget you have to be all set to go on your vacation with no OHSS!
I'm in the same scheduling bind. Need to push things past May 29th (my final exam), but want to finish the cycle early in June, so I can get the next cycle's meds if possible before my insurance runs out at the end of June. And because I want to be sure I'm well past transfer, with good E2 and progesterone levels, and no OHSS, before we head off on vacation. We haven't even booked anything yet for end of June/first half of July because of the unpredictability of all the IVF shit.
Congrats on finishing your final exam!

Bottoms Off said...

It seems like she doesn't understand that waiting ANOTHER month IS a BIG DEAL. All we do is wait. IT IS A BIG F-ING DEAL.

Congrats on graduation!!!

Beautiful Mess said...

That is annoying and they ARE jerks! Shall we poke them with BIG long needles in the ass? I think that's a WONDERFUL idea, personally. Enjoy your graduation! YAY!!! YOU ARE GRADUATING!!!!
*HUGS*

Jen said...

I would say your nurse is a worthless bag of shit, as well. (Who was it? Surely not my beloved Sally.)

I have been missing you. I feel like you are one of the few people who is as sincerely mean as me.

Anonymous said...

wow, congrats on finishing grad school!

Parenthood For Me said...

congratulations on grad school being done. sorry your uterus sucks -mine does too. All those part on me suck pretty bad. I am just stopping by to say hi. If you get a chance stop by my non profit blog. www.parenthoodforme.org
We need help spreading the word.
thank, Erica

andrea said...

i thought i had your email addy, but i don't!
SO! congratson graduation :) yay!!

second - i will be nowhere near ready for june7th, but I would love to do one in like end july/augustish i should be ready by then! anytime you want to run or whatever let me know - i could always use some motivation. i amnot going to a gym at the current moment - when i start grad school in august i will just use ua's rec! i am sick cheap lately.