Monday, June 15, 2009

what a difference a line makes

late updates:

we went ahead with the retrieval after finding out that i probably only had 5-7 eggs that would be mature enough. ER was 5/29. 8 eggs were retrieved, 6 were mature and 3 fertilized. we did a 3dt on 6/1 and transferred 2 embryo's. one was already starting to compact and one was an 8 cell. both of them looked very good and we were strongly persuaded not to put all 3 embryo's back since they felt the risk of triplets was too high. so, the third embryo grew a few more days and was frozen 5 days after the ER.

beta was today. it was 686. my clinic likes numbers that are >100. i go back next week for another beta and in 2 weeks for our first u/s. i am officially 4 weeks pregnant today!

i don't even know what to think. i have peed on 9 sticks since 6/10 and all of them have been +, so while it wasn't a shock, it was. i felt like i really couldn't say "i'm pregnant" until after the beta. even now, it seems foreign. but a good foreign.

while we are over the moon excited, i also feel some hesitation for this post. it has been 3 years, 5 IUI's, 2 IVF's, 111 injections (and still going), countless tears and prayers. i know all too well that sinking feeling of reading that yet another person is pregnant. especially after recent failed treatments. i know the feelings of rage, jealousy, hopelessness and unfairness that come from reading about another person's BFP.

i hope that soon all of you ttc will get to feel this too.

15 comments:

SS said...

Congratulations! I went throuhg a lot to get pregnant with my first, so I udnerstand where your coming from exactly. Try to enjoy the moment, though I know that's hard with all you've been through.

'Murgdan' said...

Sending you the BIGGEST congrats ever. I wanted to email you...but figured you'd come out of hiding when you had a result...and SOOOO glad it was a GOOD result.

Wow....just wow.

:-)

c by the sea said...

CONGRATS!! YAY!! I am so thrilled for you! I hope you continue to keep us updated :) Can't wait to find out how many heartbeats there are....

sending lots of good juju

Dagny said...

congrats!!! :D

I never will, but I'm glad you get to.

All the best, and a happy and healthy 9 months to you.

//sorry, can't do preggo blogs...*sigh* But know I wish you well....

VA Blondie said...

Congratulations! That is fantastic news! It does take a while to get used to being pregnant. I am 9.5 weeks, and it still feels strange. Enjoy the moment!

Mombi said...

Congratulations!! I am so freaking happy for you!!

Megan said...

Congratulations!!! You have given me hope for my next cycle!

Kate said...

Holy crap! That's one fantastic beta! I guess when they say it doesn't take a whole pile of eggs to get there, they really mean it. The 3 that fertilized must have been super quality to give you that beta and get you a blast to freeze.
Congrats! I'll put my bets on two being in there. When's the ultrasound?

Leah said...

Tiffanie- That is SUCH GREAT NEWS! Congratulations! You have given me hope for my second cycle! Congrats again, Momma!

Beautiful Mess said...

YAAAAAY! Sweetie, that's a great beta! I am SO happy for you! ACK, I'm crying! So the naked dancing around the fertility statue worked! Awesome! I'm so happy for you! I really am!
*HUGS*

ohemily said...

Congrats! That's a very strong beta! I wish you a happy pregnancy :)

andrea said...

congrats again!!!

Tina said...

Congratulations! I can't wait to see/hear how many heartbeats there are!

Angela said...

YEAHHHHHH!!!!!!
HUGS!!!!!

Misty said...

OMG! That is freaking awesome! Hope everything goes good this week! So excited for you!